My new friend called Nausea

Like clock work at 6 weeks nausea set in.

I sit writing this now as my friend visits me hopefully for a short time. Having just finished breakfast it is always nice to know you are not alone. Sarcasm is not my best suite.

Though it isn't like most women describe it where they are gagging thankfully, mine comes like a slow wave where my stomach just doesn't feel right. It happens whenever I eat making eating something I am now doing simply because I have to. I still get hungry, not ravenous but the knowledge that I am going to feel queasy after takes the fun out of it, and let me just say I love to eat!

I am trying Nux Vomica (Colubrina 200C) a homeopathic remedy to try to relieve it and it seems to work, sometimes. The Nausea tends to last anywhere up to about 30 minutes and then subsides until I eat again that is.

They say that Nausea is a good sign that the pregnancy is healthy... go figure. With my first two I had nothing. They were perfect pregnancies from what I recall and both were healthy boys.

When we were trying to conceive I prayed to the creator to help me achieve pregnancy. I said I welcome the morning sickness..... I think I would like to rephrase that :0). Kidding sort of.

As I sit here typing away trying to focus on something other than the nausea my partner assumes I am neglecting my chores, or failing to help her around the house (I have ADD so forgetting my chores isn't an uncommon thing for me to do). It isn't her fault as I have not announced how I feel and she can't be expected to know that each time I eat I feel nauseous. When she gets nauseous she sits or lays down it is what gets her through it... for me I have to remain busy it is the only way I feel I can cope. I can understand my clients partners more now... understand how they feel during the pregnancy as they are somewhat expected to know what the partner is going through at any given time. After all I somewhat expect it of my own partner. The understanding that she should know that each time I eat I feel nauseous and shouldn't have to ask, that she should understand that my typing is a form of distraction and not a way to ignore my responsibilities. Not complaining I would rather be in this boat than not pregnant.... but truthfully the nausea sucks!

Caught being Naughty

Last night we celebrated my partners semi return to health and the news of the baby with a friend by heading out dancing. My partner even partook in some drinks!

It was a great night and so when we got home we decided to continue the party ;0). As we were getting intimate my parter whispered "baby" now I know she wasn't calling me that ... she was thinking about the baby. Shit is all I could say.... I laughed it off and she pretended it wasn't what she said and we continued....

I am not sure if it was how long it had been (she had been ill for over a month), the fact that my pregnancy hormones were flying or a combination of them both but OH MY GOD..... it was intense... thus I was very vocal... my partner covered my mouth telling me I had to watch what I was saying.... stop calling out her name and defiantly stop swearing.... she whispered... she will know... she can't know what we are doing.... as if the act of our making love will be etched in the unborn child's memory.
It was so cute.... but at the same time I was able to feel what many women in my situation are feeling as their husbands or partners worry about the baby..... As our hormones are flying causing us to be hornier than a school boy our partners are getting used to the fact that inside of us is a little human being..... a human being that is living and breathing and growing! Right now there is no bump to remind her that the baby is there.... there is no movement to show the baby is reacting to how I am feeling... I wonder what will the upcoming months bring as I get hornier and she gets more aware. I know there will be a time when I won't feel like it but right now I am going to take as much as I can ... cause once that baby is visible.... it might prove to much for the whispering lover!

Then there is the flip side... as a Doula I know sex does not harm the baby, does not cause you to miscarry and is perfectly safe. Yet just before we were getting into it I wondered... should I not do this... should I just pleasure my partner and call it quits... can I lose the baby by indulging? I got over it quick but it was a split second worry I had.... funny what goes through your mind when the baby is yours!